I wish I did not wish
Be careful what you wish for.
Been there but I regret my wish.
As a child it was my wish to know my father
I thought the pain of not having a father will be erased But nah
I furthered the pain far beyond my reach
I thought my life was a mess without a father figure.
Only to figure out it was gonna get more mess up
Now am asking the pain for mercy
How I wish I did not wish.
Some stones are better left unturned
All I wanted was the truth
But it was not what I expected
Because it brought me pain
I been trying to figure out how to heal
It brought pains to my mother
It brought pains to my family
It brought pains to those I love
It brought pains to myself,
pain I brought apon my self
Not all fathers that brought a child to the world deserve to be called a father.
By Harvey Nkoana
You said you know me well
And I asked how well do you know me
I was very amazed for you to say you know me
I asked my self how can you know me while I don’t know my self
I am a person with many sides
Everyday I discover side a I never knew
I call that self discovery
If you say you know me,
You know the good and happy side of mine
You don’t know the bad and sad side of mine
I choose to show people my good and happy side
Because I want them to do the same
Know one knows what I go through when am alone and in my own world
No one knows how anger transform me into a monster
Am happy I always manage to go back to the good person I am
I can’t claim I am the one who always manage to make my self happy
But with the mercy of the merciful Lord
Who been good to me since I was born,